The New Road

Kiss me sweet when I come home ask me how my day has gone touch my back in that spot there show me truly how you care you say that you love me that you couldn't live without me you depend on my providing for the life that you enjoy you take me when you want me and I let you have your way But at night when you are sleeping and the kitchen faucet's leaking and the garbage wasn't taken out again, like it should be Then I think of all the stories that happy women tell me and I yearn for men like they have that take care of what they need I would love for you to want me to be happy when I come home To have supper waiting for me and the dishes have been done the bedroom chaos picked up and a kiss upon your lips Wrap me gently in your strong arms and tell me how you're doing Let me feel the love outpouring from your heart and into mine Keep the roof above from leaking and the lawn all neat and pretty and by keeping up with those things I'd be grateful for all time But there's never any love here It's TV and your cell phone playing games and never talking Never taking care of me I work so hard all day long and a sancutary should be the place that I can go to when I've given all I can I need to feel I'm filled up, from a peaceul flowing fountain but my life runs at a deficit every hour every day. So let me tell you this to warn you The day will come that I don't call you That I don't turn the car down our street and I drive the other way I can't lose what I don't have here it can't make me any sadder to be alone out in the world when I'm alone with you each day. No tender touches waiting No kisses on my forehead No conversation ever about what our purpose is There is nothing more that I can do to give you any more There is nothing left inside me That hasn't all been poured I've been drained for twenty years Never once have I felt filled up after spending time with you I've given more than I have to you and all your needs and if it sounds selfish then that's the way it will be But I've not been kissed in so long Not been held or touched or felt love That all that's left of me is a cardboard cut-out girl I can't pay for your existence work overtime to make up for all the the time that you don't work and the money you don't have Even when the house is breaking you don't see the cracks appearing and I feel just like this house does cold, neglected, left alone Ive never been unfaithful Never reached out for another Never broke the vows that I made those many years aso But I can't go on in this way feeling less and less a woman Feeling tossed aside and used only for the money that I make So I'm passing by our street and I'm heading down a side road and if I don't see you, I wish you all the best. ause there's nothing here to hold me Our kids have grown and left me and you never even held me the night my mother passed away I can't tell you any more the things that I am needing You never ever get it you just wait for it to pass It's not passing by though this time I'm headed out to sea and If I never get to see you it was nice, but I don't need it I just want a hand to hold mine someone to really see That I'm a special person full of love and plans and purpose Full of things I have to share and things I need to be And I'm sorry that it took such a long time to arrive here But I thought that I was saving what was meant to be But really, should a person never feel the soft warm kisses that our hearts were meant to give Never feel her pulses quicken when a voice touches her ear The safe haven we are meant for Should be there for one another and if that's not existing we should push off from the shore And if I never find it If that peace remains elusive well at least I know I tried to I Lived and Loved along the way.